Spring Already?

Wow! Spring Quarter is already here. And it is already Thursday! I remember when Spring Break just started I said that Spring Break is almost over, and people did not believe me but here we are now. Haha.

Walking around campus, I thought I was still in Winter Quarter. My freshmen year of college is almost over. There are less than 10 weeks left in dorm life. 146 swipes needed to be used by the end of the quarter.
2009 has been going by HECKA fast. It is already April.

Recap of Winter Quarter would be that it was pretty interesting. That about sums up that quarter.

Spring Break was ALSO very interesting. A lot of time to myself where I can just drive around in my car or play piano and guitar at home and etc...Found out a lot about myself and found out likes and dislikes. Had many interesting discoveries! But I must say that in terms of knowledge (not only referring to academics) I hardly know anything. There is so much to learn and Spring Break basically crammed a lot of ideas in my head that I am trying to understand and decipher. Wow. Crazy stuff. Many times I think about what is my purpose in life? What is my goal? I am here in school learning to do what? Get a job? Money? What's after that? Success? Fame? What comes after all that? There has to be more to this life. Super confused and still trying to figure out myself.

In Him we were also chosen having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will... Ephesians 1:11

I am thankful for my friends and family who are pretty darn encouraging and helpful. Props to Marc Chew dude. Super late night conversations about life and then going on facebook and discovering many interesting things and laughing quite a bit. So I just want to be able to be as hospitable and caring and loving as my family and friends who gave up their time just to listen and talk. So feel free to whoever reads this to call me up anytime or facebook me or email me if you want to talk whether you have something to be thankful for or you or confused or you just want to talk. I dont believe I have any answers but life is a journey and we are still so young but I am willing to listen and help carry your burdens alongside with you. Also if you want to hear about my Spring Break feel free to ask as it was pretty eye opening and some crazy stuff happened.

God loves me and you so I just want to be able to share that with everyone else. It is indeed hard though. I guess a goal for this quarter and beyond is to change my use of sarcasm and TRY not to hurt people with words even if it is a "just kidding". So keep me accountable. I want to try this new challenge thing where you challenge yourself this quarter and at the end you reflect upon the quarter and you see how far you have come. So that would be one of my friendly tips to you if you want to challenge yourself and see if you notice any change. Right now I honestly do not know what I am saying but that is cool. Maybe there are some old habits that you have and you know that they are not right but you are too scared to change them or dont know how to. I advise you to talk to someone and be accountability partners. Encourage one another and love one another. Hating is really easy but loving is really hard. I have learned that.

ANYWAYS! Life is crazy and unpredictable, you never know what is going to happen next. As I was driving back to Davis on Sunday night I witnesssed my first car accident. I was driving in the middle lane and a car was on my left hand side. He suddenly turned on his high beams and started speeding up. Then another car from the left lane cut me off and sped up to catch the other car. The second car then cut the first car off and the second car was trying to get past the other car but the first car was switching back and forth not allowing the first car to pass it. It was basically a race. The second car was swerving and trying to get past it and then unluckily it swerved out of control on the left and hit the concrete dvidier head on. It continued to slide with sparks everywhere and I was driving in the middle lane and the freeway is only three lanes and the cars butt was sticking out into the left most lane so I had to switch over to the right most lane. I was pretty scared and shocked. I have never seen anything like that before. I was shaking and repeatedly telling my brother that I was hecka scared and traumatized. Then I got hecka paranoid while driving thinking what if my car lost control. I prayed that the guy was safe and okay because obviously it wasnt a race between two friends because the other car just sped off.
ON MONDAY I almost died. As I was biking to class with Gabby I almost died. There is a street that we have to cross to get to the other side. It is very narrow and there are cars parked on both sides. So there so happened to be a SUV that was parked at the side where it blocked my view of the traffic coming on the left. I did not know there was a car coming so I biked onto the road. At the same time a car was coming from the left and it was going around like 10 to 15 mph. I saw it at that split second and pressed my brakes as hard as I could but they really suck so it doesnt slow down much. I almost run right in front of the car but luckily the car quickly swerves to the left and I miss it by very little. My heart was pumping like crazy and I was shocked. I almost died. Wow. I was like in disbelief while my good friend Gabby was just laughing...-__-
Which reminds me of another story of when I went snowboarding in 2008 in February at Sierra I almost died AGAIN. I did not know how to control myself on the board so there was a cliff and I fell off it and luckily there was enough powdery snow to catch my fall because down there were trees.

Well my point is, life is pretty fragile and I am pretty thankful that I am still here today.

For, "All men are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field; the grass withers and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord stands forever" 1 Peter 1:24-25

Which brings me to the point that I gotta find a solid foundation to stand on, to put my faith in because when life is over, and who knows when that is, what will I have to take with me and what will I have left and where will I go?

Count your blessings and be thankful for what you have around you. Pursue what you are looking for and humble yourself to take advice and yearn for a deeper understanding of life and its purpose.

Random thought, allergies in Davis really suck :(

God Bless you!