i need perseverance through any situation. i need more patience.

decisions

the other night at fellowship during worship i asked for a worship experience ive never felt before
and then after i prayed the next song was "came to my rescue"
i didn't think much of it but when i began to sing the song i began to feel a sudden rush of emotion
i had no idea where it was coming from
and then i remembered that about one year ago i first heard this song
the lyrics really stuck out to me because i felt so lost and confused and i called out to God
and indeed he rescued me and brought me to where i am today
a feeling that i never thought would come

show me how to love

can change be quantified?

sophomore year

thank you God for bringing me through this year

i'm committing to the thing that only matters

wooooooooooooooot. late nights studying for ochem! yay!
im beginning to realize that i am a very reminiscent person. i have a bunch of random memories stuck in my mind somewhere andn they come up at very random times like now.
i remembered this one person probably around the beginning of my junior year of high school. she was kind of weird i thought because the way we met was through myspace. she messaged me randomly one day and said she saw me on one of our mutual friend's profile and wanted to be my friend. i remember seeing her at one of my friends graduation and we took a picture together. i remember she was pretty haha. i think that was the first time we ever met because i guess we never really got the chance to see each other in person. i remember the stuff that she talked to me about and then i guess i would just sort of listen and then there was a point she stopped talking to me because she got busy with her own life and i guess i havent talked to her since. how random right? but its all good. i wonder how she is doing and what she is up to nowadays maybe she will randomly facebook me one of these days who knows (well she has done it before).

isnt it funny how people are brought into your life? some people are brought completely randomly out of nowhere and then people leave and vanish into thin air. i think if you ever take time to think about the people you know now and how you met them it would be some pretty interesting thoughts and stories huh?

im a happy blogger and i dont care that no one reads this! :D
its actually fun writing out my thoughts.
no, im not gay.

give me patience

"I'm sorry but there is a height requirement"

lol

airplanes

growing up, going on airplanes always meant a good thing
i would always be traveling towards somewhere away from home
ive never traveled by myself
until last year
going somewhere unexpecting
coming back regretting
i dont think i knew what i was getting into when i got on that airplane going south
i was blind to the fact that the flight back would be the worst flight experience ever
i sat alone with two empty seats on my right with the window shade open
staring outside towards the city lights
the lights shine so brightly exclaiming the spot where my heart was broken
have you ever slept while holding back tears?
my mind couldn't be at ease
physical and mental tiredness led me to try to sleep
while reality and brokenness kept me awake
i didnt speak a single word that entire one hour flight back home to davis

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
i could really use a wish right now

dang =/

i always feel like the beginning of a new quarter is so hectic. my schedule never seems to be finalized and it makes everything else feel so messy. random problems arise and they are so trivial yet they are so annoying

to whoever this may concern
i dont really know how to start this so i guess this will do. i want to first say im sorry. sorry for a lot of things. i try to consider and think myself as a sorta nice guy who tries to refrain from talking bad about someone behind their back but i guess im wrong. sorry. i apologize for saying some of the things that i did to people and just releasing some of my frustration and anger inside by bagging on someone to make me feel better about myself. im 100% sure i didnt mean everything i said and thought that would be an easy way for me to laugh or feel good about something. im sorry. if you ever receive it and you may not know what it is exactly when you read this or if you read this i just want to put it out there that i have been thinking about it and just pondering reactions or intentions and i finally realize that it is not out of retaliation. its not a way to get back at you. i think it was just a way to show my appreciation. i think its clear that a lot of work and effort was put into making a lot of things. i dont think they have been gone to waste giving it back. maybe get a glimpse of yourself or a smile or just throw it away. it meant something and i think it was appropriate to give it back to the rightful owner as i believe that some of the things were not meant for me to keep. so here take it back as a signal of gratitude. i think if i was given one wish at the moment it would be to take all these things back as if they were to never had happened and there was no beginning to all of this. things would be a lot better that way. but thats only me. my heart goes out to you

break my heart for what breaks Yours

just gotta pick yourself back up baby. you got this

bittersweet

bitter because i realize how naive i used to be and how much time and effort was wasted
sweet because you gone and now i definitely know what to avoid haha

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooot!

Ankle Injury...the second time

Hello. I remember 2 or 3 years ago was the first time I sprained my ankle. I was playing basketball on some outdoor court in Davis. This was my left foot.

Now this is the right foot. :( sitting here with an ice pack on my ankle and shivering because its so freaking cold. Dang this kinda sucks...

you really think your shizz is all that...
keep telling yourself that

i put up the peace sign put the index down

All I Need Is You

All I need is you Lord