you really think your shizz is all that...
keep telling yourself that

i put up the peace sign put the index down

All I Need Is You

All I need is you Lord

Last Day of 2009

I've learned that holding on to something insignificant is a waste.
It's impossible to find worth in garbage.
Who puts hope in something that has no future?
I've heard that people who have nothing put on a mask of something they don't have and will never obtain.
So 2009 be gone!
2010 will be looked upon with opened eyes to look for things that are real.

my scary dream

It started off with being dropped off at some campsite. At this campsite it was just a group of familiar faces. People that I have met in my life. And then something went wrong. Apparently the way out of this camp was by trains and the passageway out was completely blocked off. It was sealed by this wall which couldnt be broken. People started panicking and went on trains anyways. News of the first train that attempted to try and get out was that nobody made it. It was a matter of time until things started to go into mass chaos. I decided to go on a train with no particular reason why. With familiar faces on the train we decided to figure out ways to brace the impact. But none of the ideas that were brought up were very smart ideas. Me and the people I knew decided to just get off the train. We thought that everyone was going to get off the train with us but as we got off some of the people stayed inside refusing to go out. The train continued to go off towards the direction for destruction. This is when things started to get pretty freaky. I was at this platform station where the trains would pass by as it entered into the tunnel where it basically meant that the train was nearing the end of its journey. People I knew were on some trains and refused to get off while I was just standing at the station looking as the trains were passing by. Me and a friend decided to go and hop onto one of the trains at the last stop. So we went through the tunnel and met with a large amount of people gathered at the last stop. This whole place was full of familiar faces and people that I knew. They were basically all waiting to get on the train. I was very confused why people would do this instead of waiting to be rescued. The environment was so scary. There were echoes going around this whole tunnel. The atmosphere was very dark. It was a feeling of death that was just waiting for us all. As the sound of the train to take us all approached. I started getting very afraid. I was wondering if I should go back. Back into the sunlight so I can see another day. I was thinking about family and what they would think about this decision. They wouldn't even know what happened here. And as I was getting ready to get up and leave. Bam. I woke up. It was one of those dreams I wanted to get out of. But couldn't find the difference between reality and my dream world. But I seriously got up from my bed breathing really hard. Wow. What a great way to start winter break eh?

Something to be thankful for 2nd Edition

You may be wondering why the title is 2nd edition. It's because I was looking through my blog the other day and saw that about one year ago around this time after thanksgiving break I wrote a blog about my thanksgiving break happenings.

One year ago I was like that and one year later I am like this. It's kinda funny reading back my old stuff because of how I wrote it.

Thank you for family.
Thank you for brotherhood and sisterhood.
Thank you for maturing me.
Thank you for who You are.
Thank you God for everything.

Freedom

What is the meaning of freedom?

I'm pretty sure almost everyone in America has a slight idea of what that means.

It is represented by July 4th. Freedom is related to independence. Kids think freedom means they can do whatever they want. And the list goes on.

Let me describe what freedom means to me after coming back from a retreat with my fellowship this weekend.

Freedom means letting go.

Freedom means living in obedience.

Freedom means not living by the flesh.

Freedom is shouting and proclaiming the glory of God.

Freedom is found through Jesus Christ.

Freedom reigns.

The Second of November

How is it November already? Last year I would be counting down the days until Thanksgiving Break to go home. To tell you the truth last school year the majority of my motivation was counting down towards certain things and that would be how I got through days. I think it is because I was always expecting something to happen so it was just a countdown till that time.

But now there is not much of counting down. Mainly because I'm not really expecting anything. I feel like when I do, it never happens. But boy is life full of surprises.

However I can say that I certainly am looking forward to the new year :) 59 days left of 2009