give me patience

"I'm sorry but there is a height requirement"

lol

airplanes

growing up, going on airplanes always meant a good thing
i would always be traveling towards somewhere away from home
ive never traveled by myself
until last year
going somewhere unexpecting
coming back regretting
i dont think i knew what i was getting into when i got on that airplane going south
i was blind to the fact that the flight back would be the worst flight experience ever
i sat alone with two empty seats on my right with the window shade open
staring outside towards the city lights
the lights shine so brightly exclaiming the spot where my heart was broken
have you ever slept while holding back tears?
my mind couldn't be at ease
physical and mental tiredness led me to try to sleep
while reality and brokenness kept me awake
i didnt speak a single word that entire one hour flight back home to davis

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
i could really use a wish right now

dang =/

i always feel like the beginning of a new quarter is so hectic. my schedule never seems to be finalized and it makes everything else feel so messy. random problems arise and they are so trivial yet they are so annoying

to whoever this may concern
i dont really know how to start this so i guess this will do. i want to first say im sorry. sorry for a lot of things. i try to consider and think myself as a sorta nice guy who tries to refrain from talking bad about someone behind their back but i guess im wrong. sorry. i apologize for saying some of the things that i did to people and just releasing some of my frustration and anger inside by bagging on someone to make me feel better about myself. im 100% sure i didnt mean everything i said and thought that would be an easy way for me to laugh or feel good about something. im sorry. if you ever receive it and you may not know what it is exactly when you read this or if you read this i just want to put it out there that i have been thinking about it and just pondering reactions or intentions and i finally realize that it is not out of retaliation. its not a way to get back at you. i think it was just a way to show my appreciation. i think its clear that a lot of work and effort was put into making a lot of things. i dont think they have been gone to waste giving it back. maybe get a glimpse of yourself or a smile or just throw it away. it meant something and i think it was appropriate to give it back to the rightful owner as i believe that some of the things were not meant for me to keep. so here take it back as a signal of gratitude. i think if i was given one wish at the moment it would be to take all these things back as if they were to never had happened and there was no beginning to all of this. things would be a lot better that way. but thats only me. my heart goes out to you

break my heart for what breaks Yours